I got really sad coming back from vacation. It was unexpected since I previously had experienced joy returning back to NY…until now. Coming back home this time really made me sad. I dreaded coming back to a joyless apartment where everything is stark and bare. Shades of greys and blues lacking in warmth and happiness. … More Post vacation blues? Or vacuous home sadness?
I am sad. I feel it everywhere, all the time. even when there is something funny- after that instant- you can always feel the sadness lurking, around the corner, underneath your skin- just below your subconscious- making its way out- like a terrible ink spill – permeating everywhere. My conscious mind tries to keep it … More Sept 20, 2016- Sadness
You know what I love about friends? They give you treats! You know what I love about Vivian? Yes I am referring to myself as the 3rd person in a very Japanese or maybe an American 2 year old manner. What I like about myself is that I hoard the treats to enjoy a couple … More Treats!
My friend and I went to a “Exclusive” singles get together organized by some snotty group called “the inner circle.” It attempts to get the top people in different countries and hosts these monthly events. For example, they just had an Official Launch Party at Gainsbourg in Zürich. Why of course, why wouldn’t we be … More Yay!
Warning: no proofreading has not occurred yet- feedback is welcomed! It happened. I have officially been dick pixed or rather texted a picture of a rather large erect circumcised penis. I couldn’t even make this stuff if I tried. I went out with a guy who I met on some dating website with a name … More Sept 19,2016 – Dick pixed!
Stepping onto the BART makes me feel like I just stepped into a unplaceable time warp. It seems like all the riders are were specifically dressed by their local thrift shops. They are colorfully mismatched or exude an endearing kind of dated frumpiness. Elastic waist bands on high waisted pants, elastic pant cuffs, bandanas, old … More What I like about Northern Cali
You can’t win when you are depressed (AND SINGLE!!!). I feel that I am always doing the “wrong” thing. If I am sitting around feeling bad about myself, my friends would say that I’m not trying hard enough. but when I’m going on 2 dates weekly and exhausted, they will say “you will find love … More You can’t win…
Not sure if this is what withdrawal or depression feels like. It seems that I have exhausted all my endorphins surfing yesterday that there is not one more molecule of happiness left in my brain (at least for today). I feel drained, depleted, exhausted and empty. Despite the 12 hours of sleep, I still feel … More Catch it if you can…
Welcome back to the dating scene Vivian. You have been here before and here you are again. This time something seems to be a little different. Maybe this time I am older and wiser or maybe I have been doing this way too long, but this time does seem slightly varied. Maybe the choice of … More We Are All Pigeons
I did not realize that I might get what I want simply by asking. Have you guys tried this out before? What a novel concept that I have denied myself for all these years. That is what happens when you grow up in a family with crazy parents that deny their children their needs and … More Ask and you shall receive…